3xper1enceS

2009-05-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

Birthday party is over, exams are over, holiday arrived and I finally wrote something.

Birthday party cannot really count as a successful one because I guess I overestimate the food and people coming. I am running up and down to get everything done, I didn’t have time to talk to my friends. The whole party just ends like that, when I have not even sit down and enjoys, feel the mood, all just gone in a moment. I really appreciate those who came. Hope they did enjoy themselves.

Exam are craps, I just study like a week before the exam and I went in with half blanked. I doubt I can really do well, just try my luck.

21st birthdate came, nothing special about the day, just go school for my exam, surprised surprised by my very dear university friends, came home study for next day test and went out for dinner. Thanks so much to those who sms and wished me happy birthday,
I would like to say it really sads me a lot when I dun even get to celebrate with my wife. 21 is only once in a lifetime, down the road of the life, I doubt I would be excited about my birthday, because its just a sign of growing old. A call or a sms could easily warm my heart but its not there. Perhaps is just mark another day of your life, but it really means a lot to me, it just shows how much I stand.

After exams are over, I can finally relax and relax. Slack at home for the past weekend and then off to work. Now Im working as waitress again, I guess it not the best choice but well, I have to. There are tons of things that I wish to buy but everything goes with money around.
I know that one must always be contented with what they have, but the cruel world is telling me that without money, you are nothing.

Its my day

2009-04-29T10:40:00.003+08:00

Its my birthday today but Im definitely not a happy, birthday girl. With a paper today and tomorrow, no partying all night. =( Cannot even have a nice 21st birthday day.

With the lighting striking and the thunder roaring, Im going off for the paper on my bday. sighs.

My worth

2009-03-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

Wondering why nobody really love and cherish what they have now. It feels pain when people just do not see you at all, the ignorance of your existence and feeling.

I am shrinking and shrinking, one fine day, you will never see me again cause my existence and feeling is long gone. I have been trying real hard to prove myself I am worth the value, but now it seems that I have long gone in your eyes.

Life is hard, at time the air doesn't seems to go into the lungs, one deep breath could just end my life as it hurt so badly.

After almost 21 years of my life I then realize the cruel fact.

2009-01-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

Back to school today. Today lesson was ok, perhaps not much friends around to talk with so can concentrate better, or perhaps because today is the first lecture. After lecture which is only 12- 2, slack around in school, met JJJJ at lot one, shopped cotton on. Some serious comment that I feel that cotton on should take note. Firstly, the sales personals there are way too fierce that I personally dun really like to shop in there anymore. Secondly, why can’t just 2 person share 1 fitting room. We saved one fitting room is not like we will be doing something funny inside, we are all sensible people. All I can say is disappointment.

Not much studying today, kind of disappointed with myself. Put myself into some thinking.

我不是我想像的那么勇敢：要怎么知道我是否真的爱上你了，我应该以什么方式努力的生活下去，我该以怎么态度面对我的生活。

BLAME ON IT!

2009-01-10T01:43:00.001+08:00

2009, its only 10 days after the new year and people around me must be playing jokes on me. I hate economy crisis, every crisis I am being raped off something important in my life.

You can be earning 6 digit every month, EC is just a small problem that never made any difference in your life, but to me, EC had crashed my life into nothing, TWICE. You see it but you will never be able to do anything about it. I HATE IT!!!!

No decision to be made right now. Just cry and wait.

1 sem of updates

2009-01-06T22:50:00.007+08:00

Evaporated for one sem of my life, I guess adapting fast and time management is so important. Project and exam period had stress me out a bit, but fun time spent with my group of friends is rewarding. Results are being released, did not do well this time round, disappointed with myself, have lots to catch up in the next 7 semester.

Start of school was fine until all the projects came and stress X thousand times. Video editing and team not producing seems to be the most serious worry but I made it through! Time spent with friends were great, I love every moment that was spent with them esp the jokes and laughter!

“Aunties”( me, joanne and isebelle) was the best, we just love the auntie spirit and gossiping.

joanne, kai ting, me, isebelle and ker ling to night safari.

5 of us to east coast park.

Life have changed a fair bit. Everyone seems to be busy with their life, well I guess these problems will be faced by us when we start to grow up and everyone have to move on with their life.

2009 had knock on my door, happy new year! I guess with economy down turn and stuff like that, I guess this year will be a hard year ahead. Spend my new year eve countdown at jun hong house, after that go to jjjj house to stay over, slept @ 4 plus, went to kea thong for breakfast. Went back to play some card game and mahjong.

Ever since holiday, other than the survey job, I have been slacking at home. I did some housework as usual but felt so slack wondering if I can catch up with the pace when school reopen.

10 September 2008

I am growing day by day without me noticing it. Life in uni changed me that much. Life is not easy at all. After making this far in life, stress and tired had got over me.

My tolerance level had increase, after so many days of rushing for one project, I found out I had grew so much. Perhaps uni make me grow so much. Growing process is painful I guess, just like how my skin is being stretch. There are so much things that I want to accomplish, but there is only will in me, I cannot even find time to breathe.

This vacuum in life is making me hard to breathe. Motivation in life all flew away from me. I trying very hard to get air in this life. I hope I will be able to make it.

First week of school

The start of school officially starts this week. Only attend lectures and no tutorials because have not chosen the slots yet. Without tutorials, I am feeling so tired, the moment I got onto my bed, I felt asleep dun even have time to think about stuff.

I got sun burnt on national day eve all because of rag day. My mom says I look like a Indian girl now. Im sad.

After spending like 10 days on the mini project given to the 4 of us, we finally did it! Had fun with the armories, well done people! With grumbles, sweat, addiction on contact glue, drilling, paint, going back to complete it on Saturday, badminton, emo-ing, sleeping in the field, pictures and the good good good, I really felt wonderful team work and great hot babes!

My babes: me, isebelle, jeremy and lynnette

Before.....TADA!!!!

SDE 41

I'm feeling bad

2008-07-30T02:21:00.007+08:00

I don't mean to.
I'm feeling so bad
I'm sinful
I'm sorry

I regret after I did it, I will have insomnia...
Will I have karma?
I don't wish to.
I'm really sorry...
Curse me if you wish to...

不知道不想要为什么我的心，明明是想靠近，却孤单到黎明。。。

1001 stuff

2008-07-20T22:13:00.006+08:00

5 July 2008, Saturday

Finally back home from camp! I must say I am really not up to be camper. I am not going for the union camp. I am so lack of sleep now! Now I shall update how DISGUSTING (I got it right this time) i got myself in the camp! Haha!

Day 1:
Early morning I woke up and prepare myself, in the mood of sleeping I got everything done and my mom fetch me to school.

Register for the camp and got my secret name and a paper with part of Jenny by Click 5 lyrics on it. I sat and wait, then I was informed I got into the wrong section, so I moved and Daphne saw me! She call me so I sat with her and we chat. She was also at the camp alone. Then we have to find our OG (orientation group) with that lyrics! Amazingly Daphne got the same as me! That means we are in the same group, Click 5! After that we try to gather others and settle down. We then move our bag to the LT and played ice breaking games and cheers, I try very hard to remember names.

After that had lunch, following was amazing race! Really amazing! We won some, lose some. The scariest part is I am so heavy and the guys need to carry everyone over! So crazy@@

After the race we had this challenge for all the freshie. There is this blue canvas map, surface so rough placed on a slope, pour with soap, all freshie have to climb up. You cannot do it alone, it had to be a group work. So first thing I did the base, then some attempt some got up, the formation break, we do it again till I feel that my back hurt so much so I give up. Conclusion is I got up with help of friends and strings. HAHA!

We got our room assigned, I was so lucky to be in same room as Daphne, everything is just so coincidental. Shower, bring bags to the room and then dinner. Dinner was at the canteen then after that we sat down and talk. Next up game again. We play secret pal and blindfolded, so dirty we got “bua” with cream and stuff all over. Feeding each other, get sabo and etc. SLEEP!

Day 2:

Woke up with pain in muscles everywhere. In LT announce that there is one fake freshie in every OG and made everyone distrust each other in a moment. HAHA fingers start pointing around. But well we made it through.

Game in the afternoon, we lose quite a few games, one worst game is having a balloon in between your leg, lie down and roll! ON the blue canvas again now filled with sands on it. So scare that the balloon will burst, end of game, all knee and hands are scratches. Then we had mass dance. Mass dance is a Woo stuff because I cannot dance but seems ok in the end although we will miss some steps. At night, we are supposed to do a flag for the group and a MTV based on click 5 song catch your wave.

bloW blOW BLOW!

Forming C5

I so called volunteer myself to do the flag since no one knows art and I took art in secondary school days, and I did constantly draw. The flag was nice from what others say, I feel that its nice too, thanks for the idea and the girls who helped too. At night Daphne went home.

Day 3:
Wake up early to get clothes from mom, but I did not feel the vibration so I miss the call when I am actually awake alr! Then got scolded of course. Get clothes, went to sleep then wash up. Got some talk in the morning and after that is learning dance from the archi side. FIELD GAMES after that!! Really got very dirty.

Game 1: Human hamburger! Really got squash and press down like shit. Somemore I was like at the bottom and knee on the floor

Game 2: melting the ice and get the code inside the ice! Poor guys have to do push up and make themselves hot. We girls use hands, so we start to like self-abuse, we start to slap one another hand. So crazy.

Game 3: Obstacles
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Game 4: Knee cap on the blue canvas, topping are ketchup, chilli, mayonnaise and water and “bua” so I got injured in the knee I guess not only me, those who really chiong got it.

Game 5: Best game by the group. Captain ball, but the ball is changed to things like raw chicken, squid, balloon, soap.

I wrote all the stuff I remember cause I was so tired that certain stuff I cannot remember very well. At night was preparation for the MTV presentation, we did it till almost 2. Went back room, pack up to prepared for the sentosa trip early in the morning

Day 4:

Woke up quite early to prepare for the sentosa trip. Feeling very tired cause we only managed to sleep like 4 hours.

Sentosa was really sand all over for mua ci. Into the sea for captain ball, dog and bone. Mouthful of sea water for filling up the bottle, knee got worst. WORST is, I got so black. But I love my OG!

Our Mermaids~

At night was MTV presentation, did not did up to expectation but I guess the effort put in was remarkable. At night was meet the secret pal and chit chat. Did not win any prize, but I guess the effort is recognised. Then we had a last mass dance and off we go to the nearby prata shop to had prata. Reach home about 12.

FOC camp vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDrvkYbk80w

9 July 2008, Wednesday

Click 5 BBQ at east coast. Went to parkway to meet the rest, then cabbed down to ECP to prepare the food and stuff. Evening time is a lot of flies and night is cats, after bbq we went to the pavilion nearby to sit and play truth. Knew quite a lot of stuff.

Went home shower and off to bed.

13 July 2008, Sunday

Small gathering at JJJJ house. We cooked spag for our lunch. Quite nice and its rare to see 5 woman squeezing in a kitchen! HAHAHA!

Played game and took numerous photos. Elaine was the one who got most assholes when playing the “dai dee” so she will be treating us durians on tue.

14 July 2008, Monday

When to the interchange to do my tertiary ez-link, collect my registered mail and go library to look for some books.

15 July 2008, Tuesday
When for driving lesson, it was so boring! Learn some new stuff, but overall was boring. Then when over to SS place to buy durians and off to JJJJ house to eat.

16 July 2008, Wednesday

Went back to NUS for the rag, met new friends, and got myself quite dirty. Left school in a hurry and went home for dinner, out again for some English study with friends.

18 July 2008, Friday

Dad fetches me and my friends to school for the English test. The paper was tough. After that walk all the way from the sports hall to SDE. Wait for Daphne friend to tell us about the mod things, after that bel came and we went to submit the scholarship form.

Check-up after that, the whole process took us 1 hour!! So crazy! Then after that we went for rag. Bel got something on so she went off early, I stay till almost 7. I did not have any lunch, I only had 2 slice of bread of breakfast. I almost fainted! Haha.

19 July 2008, Saturday

Congratulation to JJJJ for making it! So happy for her, shopped at town, bought a few stuff, talk a lot, took photos a lot toos, went to jess lounge to see her, laugh and talk till 11. took 190 home, 190 was crazy!

To my beloved ones...

2008-06-30T00:02:00.005+08:00

To me it's a kind of pity that we cannot meet up before I leave for my camp, although I will still in Singapore and no where far, but I really hope to get together with your to gather some courage before I meet new friends, but I guess your have stuff to carry on.
So before I leave I just want leave a message to everyone of your.

To jess:
You are always so brave and shining in the eyes of mine. I can take the solution you give me when I am faced with problems, the attitude that you lead your life inspires me and I am learning from you how to have the attitude towards life. You're cool!

To Elaine:
You are wonderful. Dun feel hurt if we call u Bleaf cause sometimes you are a bit (haha) but that is what makes u unique isn't it? Dun close up yourself too much, go out and make new friends, BUT not forgetting us also. You are someone who have great will, dun give up.

To Ying Jia:
My Future air stewardess? Dun fear, no matter which path you choose to do, I will be at your back giving you support (provided it's the politically correct stuff to do, and not stunts, haha). You have a very outward bounded character which I feel its good, you get to expose to more of life. When will I get to know what is in your heart and mind?

To Shu Fang:
Don't always feel that you cannot do it, you can! Must believe in yourself, your English is not that bad, assignment done also good enough. You can make it! Don't always fierce me ah~ I small girl I scare. Lesser root beer for you if you fierce or bully me! Haha.

Stay Strong everyone! Future will not be easy, but I guess your will excel well. I actually very much hoping that we can meet up, but everyone got stuff to do which I guess I should not be so stubborn to insist on meeting up. Leaving a message here also not sure your will read or not, anyway I hope we can be more open of our feelings so I walk into your heart and understand more. But its hard, I know.

Really want to know how I fair in everyone heart but well its bad to insist on stuff too much specially when it comes to feelings and emotions.

Writing as if I will be gone, nope I will not be gone, I will still be in Singapore and bothering your in the years to come! Cheers!

car can move...DuH

2008-06-29T16:31:00.001+08:00

26 June, Thursday:

I had my very first driving lesson, CAR CAN MOVE! I was so scare at first cause I did not know where to assemble where to find the instructor. But everything went smoothly and I managed to get into the driver sit. He teaches me how to control the pedal. When he say ok drive straight I was like OMG am I really doing it now? So sudden I am not well prepared yet! But I drove and after that was to the main road. Gosh, everything was fine till the road in circuit was filled with more cars moving around, I have to stop at certain moments and before I move off, the car stall~ and it happens not just once but I guess up to 10 times! HAHAHA but overall was fun driving a car, so different from Daytona!

Will be off to camp tomorrow for four days, kind of feeling weird and frustrated cause I am so not sure what shirt to wear and my room is in a messy of all the camp stuff lying around! When I see the mess, I just cannot be bothered to continue packing and feel so angry *ARGH*

PI 's' & wisdom tooth 's'

2008-06-25T22:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a fun day with PI (private investigator) in disgust. Well, we had our own fun where the one who is being stalk by us had fun too I guess. I guess we are quite qualified PIs now. Hope to have more stalking coming up to excite my day!

To (you know who):

I guess the time is not there yet, but dun worry, we are still young we have time to spare. Perhaps he will sort out his feelings. I know you are grateful we are there for you. However, I felt grateful too because you are sharing bits and pieces of your life and feelings with us that made me feel I am worth being your friend. Dun worry what might be coming, we will always be there for you! We are always willing to share our ears, thoughts and shoulder.

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Today I woke up early because I have a dental appointment. I predict my doctor will nag at me because I missed my previous appointment and I did not really take good care of my teeth. However, surprise! She did not nag at me but it will be my last visit to her! After 6 years I am free from NDC! I still have to go back to have a cleaning session but I am really thankful to the doctor if not I will not have this nice and neat teeth.

I mention about my wisdom tooth that seems to be coming out at the bottom right of my gum. After looking through my past x-ray she confirm that I have 3 wisdom tooth, I saw the x-ray too, I was so shocked cause instead of the normal 4, I only had 3! There no wisdom tooth on the upper left! GONE? *hmmm* So she suggest to transfer me to a doctor who can operate on me, but I ponder so she say that when I go back for cleaning then decide to see a doctor for operation or not.

Whatever it is, I am scared, since young I am scare of dentist and I hated it! They pull my mouth and make my gums bleed. I am scare, on top of that operation on wisdom tooth require to cut the gum so it will bleed more I guess, I am scare! Hope my wisdom tooth 's' stop growing now!

Happening

2008-06-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

Even though I am at home, but I still hardly update cause I am just pure lazy. So many things happened.

Yearly J2EYS chalet is over, well I guess it is a test for our friendship. Photos will be up when I got it.

I signed up for the NUS union camp, signed for a language programme and also made my appeal to the uni just to get into the course I want.

Other event that took placed were:
-I finally bought my crumpler bag.
-I had a great fall because I play my DS while walking, got a big bruise at my knee
-I passed my basic theory! WOOOS. (A step nearer)

I really miss my polytechnic friends now. Although I did not have a lot of friends in there, but I have a lot of classmates, everyone from every semester I miss u guys so much. I miss their lame jokes, miss their caring for one another, miss hopping in to every different class everyday just to sit down and chat. I guess school days are just so good especially a class move towards a goal and everyone make their effort.

I just cannot understand where the stress is coming from, I am having insomnia and bad dream.

I am still having bruise, it happened mostly near my knee cap, I guess I am so careless. In order not to put my life at stake, I will seek an advice of a doctor soon I guess.

I seriously need a job because I am overspending.

I am down with flu quite serious, I cannot breathe well, worst when it comes to brushing of teeth, I go no where to breathe!

-updating partly for ira...smile!

hot from the oven

2008-06-04T01:16:00.003+08:00

must watch really new and nice~

Super youtube

2008-05-13T00:04:00.004+08:00

MUST WATCH THIS:

7 years old girl, connie! She sings on the most recent 超級星光大道星光三班. I got a shock, she sings damn well and cute! I LOVE HER!!!

-over the rainbow

-I will always love you

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XIAO JING TENG!!!

19 + 1

2008-04-30T23:10:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to jolyn
Happy birthday to ME!

I am 20 already, starting the life with “2” is really depressing. Thanks JEYS for making their time and spent the day with me, super grateful. The night before my birthday was planning to go YingJia house stay, but so last min my dad do not allow me to, super sad and angry. I joined them for breakfast after that jess need to rush to workplace for a department meeting.

We were planning where to go and what to do, so we finally decided to meet jess at marina square. We end up late cause I need to come back home and change. Sorry to keep jess waiting. After that we check out the price of KBox, it was rather cheap and worth it, so we decided to go sing. Really super worth it! Got free flow, snacks, potato chips and nuggets or fries!!

After that as usual take pics at toilet, shopping and we pop by orchard, initially plan was to grab my Crunpler bag, but the shop close already then I peek in, my bag no more le!!! Sadden.

Go to JJJJ hse, they surprise me with cake and then present before going home.

Sad part is that this year I never celebrate with family, no cake, no dinner nothing. Perhaps make it next year..

Thanks lao pos for the present and the super cute card!!
Thanks jjjj for the cute little turtle from KL..

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My present from JEYS

Super cute bear from precious thoughts @ citylink

WAAAHHHHHH!!! I kissed ya lun on my birthday~~ my shyssss kiss

The Night Alone

2008-04-21T00:35:00.004+08:00

Nothing gets better than walking slowly home, listening to the favourite songs playing from my MP3, finding solutions and conclusions to the unfinished problems in mind...

IT ALL GET BACK TO : WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO NEXT?

A wrong sms made me realise its already 20 Apr...I wish it was never wrong and never sent...

2008-04-13T14:52:00.005+08:00

What can be more worst than having a total of 5 bruises. = (

四月金牛座分析

2008-04-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

紫薇科技大师版：这个月整体运势不错，爱情上喜事连连，好心情与家人一起分享，显得格外幸福。工作会有些忙碌，不过仍然能顺利完成，收获也不错。投资方面需要多分析、多交流，准备工作做好投资才更稳当。

天缘大师版：既无紧张曲折的故事情节亦无大放异彩的人生插曲，牛牛顶多就是内心对某些事忽然产生强烈的感觉，但绝不会上升到实际行动。金牛女被自己的思维模式捆绑着，感情上怎么也潇洒豁达不起来。

星吧大师版:本月的牛儿们开始渐入佳境，中旬之前的日子都还好。这个月里会有一些重要的事情，既耗时又不好搞，弄得你有点累。需要你注意的是，有件事会让你一时拿不定主意，但你需要当机立断。

super true~ but its not 喜事 at all~~

2008-04-12T21:55:00.003+08:00

I when back to work again~ haha. I really got see the bad side of people, I am so disappointed and angry. I cried yet again on Thursday. I am so sorry if the full timer got drag down by me. For sure I will miss everyone in the workplace except her, I wish I never go back again.

Went TopOne on Friday, singing is always so great! Love and miss lao pos a lot~~

On the way to bugis, I found patches of green on my hand realize its bruises, asked lao pos to rub for me and by the night my hand is patches of red, when I came home, I saw another one on my leg. I start to worry and went online to do some google search.

Conclusion: I am lacking perhaps Vit C.

My family keep on scaring me that is ghost who pinched me because I am naughty. But should not be, because it really hurts.

GROSS~

Disappointment

2008-04-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

What I have been waiting had reached, although the outcome is what I wanted, but the result is not what I want. I am disappointed.

2008-04-06T23:29:00.003+08:00

Finished my work on Thursday and I started to miss my colleagues.

Really thanks everyone in the pics, learned a lot from the full timers there and also from my friends, I really enjoy the crapping and stress that we went through together for past months. Last but not least my boss suk fong, she really trusted me by letting me handle some entity and taught me a lot of things. All the best for her future!

Vegetarian pau that hui fang bought for us. BIG PAU!!
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Work had really made me forgotten all the dates and day, now it's already April man! Fri was ok as I feel the sense of comfort at home. Sat and today the boredom at home is really bad, I just walk up and down the house with my mind so blank. I walk to the kitchen open the refrigerator peek inside took nothing and close it back. Slack at my bed, do housework, online, play ds and rot like hell watching drama! This feeling is really bad, perhaps I am so used to pack myself at work so now I feel so empty doing nothing! If it is school holiday still better as I can revise my work~ but now nothing to do..maybe I should revise my work someday.

For the past few days, I had been thinking after watching the drama. What actually do I want to achieve in my life and practically the answer is nothing! Those that I always said sound so impractical. From now onwards, I really want proper planning and head towards a feasible and practical goal!

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For the next few days, I want to do some shopping to pamper myself after almost 2 months of work. I will rest 2 weeks before I head for another job, by next week I must start sending out resume! Go learn driving also. Hopefully I can accomplish what I said.

WOOHOO! The crumpler bag that I want!! SUPER EX! best part is that online wrote its currently out of stock!!!

Unknowingly, I have been in love buying watches. Lao pos always scold me when I buy watches, but my watches are those cheap cheap one la~ no worries. Today I saw a tangs booklet that comes together with the newspaper, OMG I was so in love with the watches in there, one can easily go up to $550! But it really caught my eye for god damn sake! FAINT!

I don't want history to repeat itself, I'm praying hard..

2008-04-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

Fang birthday:

look at elaine!! lols
me and birthday gal
OH this sea lion, blew my hair and made it stinky!!

face as round as elephant!

HappY 20th birthday!!

Updates:

Life if full of unexpected events, never thought that I could actually work at Hewitt for so long and till now I still need to work.

Friday should be the last day but work cannot complete so Monday go back again! Yet again we cannot finish so went back today with high hopes that it will be the last day! Yet who knows work come in again and again till we cannot finish filing! DAMN going back tomorrow again!

Sometimes people just don’t know what they want. Towards education I am not that worry, I know that local university is hard for me. But I can always turn to private schools. Ever since the application to polytechnics gives me a hard bang on my head, I have take things easy. Take the long ways doesn’t means you are odd, u get to see different things that other don’t, every route is a learning experience. Now it comes to work, Stepping into the society makes me worry, I want to do shipping and I also want to try out Payroll with Hewitt, so confusing!

Parents always like to scare us kids which I don’t know why! My mom is sick for the past few days, ask her to consult a doctor she don’t want, ask her to eat med, she also don’t want. She is coughing and headache like hell. Due to concern I go to talk to her, she say things like it would be better if she sleep and never wake up. If it was in the past I sure tear on the spot, but now I have to grow up, I control and say she will not bear to left me. I seriously don’t understand why they would want to say these kinds of words to scare us.

WORK AGAIN TML!!

WOOHOO!

2008-03-29T21:14:00.012+08:00

Finally i came to update! Cause i'm not working this weekend!! And hopefully monday will be the last day!!

CNY DAY 3:

Lunch cooked by elaine aunt

Taken at ah yi hse..

Jess room~

YJ house with our mahjong!!

Dinner at thai village..a treat from aunt....this is the shark fin, shock of the day~! the fins is big piece and nice! sinful!!

Such a big bowl

After cny, i start work at Hewitt. Asked evelyn to join me, ot like hell and work until my life is all work. Even work during weekend~ how terrible! the current record is to reach home at 7.30AM!

Ying Jia B'Day!

Sunday:

@ TopOne aka to-pone..

i did not meant to rob the elmo..hahaz

Tuesday:

the big cake
the small cake

the surprise!~ elaine and shu fang was hiding~

Shu Fang B'day:

went to the zoo, first it was so hot, the next moment it was raining!! Had lunch at KFC in the zoo and the rain stopped so we went in.

Cute animals, "nice smell", scary sea lion kiss~

This is my fav! CHIPMUNKS!! and this is really eating nuts..

At night was surprise again~ got cpp to send us to her home! cake was cheese cake~ fang fang love it!!

My Tix..

Fang card was made my me...this is astroboy without eyes...

with eyes

Second pics

Final drawing!

FINALLY with colours!!

me and jess at zoo!!

On the way "home"...surprise after that!!

My Grad day!!

And so, after 3 years, I am, finally on the stage to recieve my diploma. Never felt so scare before, heart pumping so fast that I felt I might just faint on the spot or even trip and fall. After that, face red, ear hot and started to sweat.

3 years of hardwork and all rewarded in a moment of seconds.

Thanks elaine laopo and YJ lao po for going..

Fang and jess lao po could not make it but i know your are always there for me...

Finally home sweet home!

During these 3 years, I grew up in someway of another, I changed, I complaint. Thanks for those who had help me to over come the ups and downs in school work. Thanks poly-mates for the accompany, thanks for the jokes, the bullshit and the encouragement that was never told but known.

Jolyn - Diploma in Industrial & Operations Management with distinction.

random~

2008-01-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

1 more week to suffer and I will be graduating. Feeling kind of happy to finish off my diploma but at the same time feeling sad to leave school.

Went to the educational fair last week, and career fair today. Feeling lost after this, schooling seems good, signing up with navy and army seems tempting too. CNY is coming and I have to start cleaning up the house, the first place to start off is my study place, it is currently in a big mess and I am so lazy to pack. This weekend I will start doing it.

Wednesday will be the FYP presentation and I am so afraid and worry about my performance. After that I will be free! Thursday I will skip class to reformat my laptop.

Today my classmate also a good friend was telling me about “Xin guang da dao 3” they are coming to Singapore to find 8 talents to join them in Taiwan for the competition. WOW I did not even know season 2 was over. She say she want to join and try out her dare, for that moment there was this urge for me to join too. I really like to hum around and sing at home, when I am studying, showering and singing along with the drama songs. Really got this urge to participate, but there are too much consideration, I am not up to it although I want to try out all the things that I can do before my life is up.

土象星座　　土象星座：金牛座、处女座、摩羯座。　　土象星座在情绪上是个十足的弱势团体。他们不善表达，也不善于处理情绪问题。所以在情绪无法发，而问题又不能解决的情况下，就只能在心里生闷气了。因此土象星座的人，脸上总是一副愁眉不展的样子，同时也老是觉得所有的人都不了解他。其实这样的情形大部分的原因都跟土象星座的不善表达有关系。

See no wonder my workplace people always say I like very moody, no is because I am not good and expressing my emotions.

Some more:

不解风情的12星座爱情白痴:

NO.1 金牛座
迟钝的爱情感知力在金牛男的骨子里天生就存在，在爱情方面反映迟钝恐怕是他们致命的弱点，即便你很直白的对金牛座男生说出自己心中的爱慕之情，他也要先哼哼唧唧几声，然后像突然领悟似的大叫一声：原来是这样啊！让你哭笑不得。
教战守则：
对于这种反应慢的金牛座男生，你最好是和他多多接触，多多沟通，耐心地等待，总会有那么一天会让你守得云开见月明！

Omg! Hopefully this only apply to guys.

"gratitude" to FYP

2008-01-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

At this very critical moment, I should not be falling sick and grumble. BUT I am sick. Report need to be completed by hopefully tomorrow because we are meeting the supervisor.

I am now struggling with the editing of report with all the stress coming down and I am sick. I am running to the toilet due to diarrhea, stomach feeling so bloated and pain. Finally severe headache which made my mind spinning and unable to focus.

I so desperate for sleep and I wonder what time can I go to bed.

10 January 2008, Thursday

2008-01-10T23:26:00.001+08:00

I lost my ez link on the bus on my way to school, im sad that I lost it when it was like 3 more weeks to school closure. I wanted to keep it as a memorial but I just lost it like that. There are movie tickets and 3 J2EYS neoprint inside. I am really sad by this.

Since school reopen, I am so busy, preparing to finish up the FYP in time and give my last best shot in every module. Yesterday I even stay up to 12.30 to finish up the report.

At times when I break down due to stress, lao po will be there to help me cool down so I can carry on going. I guess that this is the kind of friendship that can accompany me through ups and downs, never to give up on me. I am really grateful that I have such wonderful lao pos. It must be my fortune to have them. Thank god.

Just quit my job today, I will finish up my schedule for this week. Actually I feel a bit sad quitting. I enjoy working there with the girls although sometimes I hate the politics there. Reason for me quitting is that I will be very busy for the coming week, the schedule I give is so little make me feel a bit bad. There are so many part timers working there, I am not so in need of money, why snatch place with people since they are in need of the money more than I do. I should just put all my focus in school and after cny I can start job and hunting for job.

For the further education, I just let it goes with luck, I will go apply but whether I get in or not it will all depends, I need to take the English proficiency test if I was chosen for the first round. The best part is English is the lousy subject of mine.

I guess an organizer really helped a lot in my life, I get more organized and I can take note of all the important dates.

My dad sold away one of the fishes, although I always complaint I hate them due to the smell, but when I see them bringing away the fish there is this unwillingness from the bottom of my heart. Finally I realize I like that fish, I always have fun bullying and yet scare of it. I guess everything that comes into your life, no matter is it important or not, it will take root in your heart, when it is leaving there will be this reluctance to let go, just like my ez link that had accompanied for almost 3 years.

Such an emotional post...

Written on: 6 January 2008, Sunday

2008-01-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow school reopen already then I am left with 4 weeks of school = 12 days and consist of 3 test.

There are so many things that I want to blog, I guess I have to slowly write in all.

2007 is over, during the year, I gained a lot and grew up a lot. Happiest time of the year I guess would be the time spent with J2EYS doing crazy stuff and of course the quality time spent with my family, lastly not forgetting my school time.

The most unforgettable experience would be attending SHE and liang jing ru concert, get to go Malaysia (desaru and genting), really great eye opening experiences. Speaking of liang jing ru concert, I dun quite like her but she really got a good voice, went to her concert with my colleague and I really enjoy the night with all the good songs sang.

Sat:

I did not go to NTU for the top students, partly I am alone cause jjjj sick, the most valid reason is because im tired, since the start of the holiday, I did not have ample sleep. Im now a senior panda.

Met Elaine and fang lao po to go jurong east to grab my covered shoe because tomorrow lesson I need to go to lab and need a covered shoe. Although I have one, but I want a new one! After that we proceed to bugis. See a lot of jeans that I got interest of buying, confirm buying 2 jeans, but not sure of the design yet. Im broke~! I spent over hundred bucks within 2 weeks, im dead.

After that jess lao po met us to have dinner after her work. We started to hunt for the wan ton mee shop that fang said was nice. But we could not find the place, so we gave up and ate wan zai. The food is not bad. Really feel so nice to dine with lao po, so sad jjjj could not join us because she is sick. Im going to plan one real soon to discuss our cny trip, haha.

On the way back home, I was talking to jess, really love talking to her. Talk to her let me know that I am not the one that is tired, she is far more tiring than I do, she did not complain so much yet I am complaining so much about my life. There are things that we yearn for but we do not cherish, then when we dun have, we hunger for one. She think so differently that made me understand the other side of life, I need not go university a diploma might also be successful in another way. Well it all depends on me.

Events

2008-01-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

My 2008 resolution:

1. to finish my diploma beautifully and get on with studies
2. go and learn driving and get driving license
3. to become a better person ( a. lesser temper, b. more social able)
4. get a good job or good course after polytechnic
5. slim down
6. more savings
7. more organized life (more time with friends)

Well there are some more which I think it should not be mention it shall be kept for myself. So fast its 2008! Wow I still at 2004 is not long ago. Blink blink its 2008 already!

There are so many things to update: Christmas eve, Christmas day and new year day eve. Can don’t read if not interested.

Christmas eve:

Went to Jessica’s church, the presentation was ok, at times we feel like sleeping cause it was so boring. Then the friend of the church talking it got worst. Until the video clip I was so touched and I cried, I cannot resist my tears from falling when I see all this, im sorry. Then they pray for those who needs it, although I am not a Christian but since I am there, I should follow them, it’s a respect.

After that we are so lost, went to jess hse wait for her to change her clothes, after that went downstairs, not knowing where to go. So we wondering to join the guys or not we want countdown yet we hate crowds. We board the cab not knowing where to go, the uncle also dunno where to drive us to. Haha, we end up at geylang to meet the guys.

Walk all around geylang not to find the guys but to explore until we walk from lor 1 to lor 13 we finally decided to meet the guys. Met them and they are finding place to eat. So we count down while finding place to eat. After finish eating, took cab to Clarke quay to take NR3 home. Reach home at 2 plus 3 I guess (cannot remember).

Christmas day:

Met J2eys to eat dinner together. Elaine went to jjjj house after church and I joined around 3 plus I think. Reach there, both were watching show so I played my NDS and I felt tired so I slept on jjjj bed. After that I woke up oh my is already 5 then jjjj worst was suppose to bathe then she sleep at her mom room for 50 min. met fang on 172 and reach jp about 6.30. have to wait for jess and she is tired and pain. But she did come and then we eat Swensens. As usual we laugh while eating. After eating we went to jjjj house. Suppose to play heart attack or some game but we ended up with chatting and laughter of them playing bandage.

New year day cum NYD eve:

A very exciting day I guess. We are suppose to fit into our secondary school skirt. Wow after so long never wear find it so “song” (nerd) to wear knee length skirt and all the way up to the belly button. Elaine, jjjj and me wore our uniform and go over to Stamford house, where the party begins. We were slightly later as usual. Haha cause we are girl ma.

Upon reaching we wait a while and then eat dinner. Then eat until 8 plus almost 9. im so full by then. We girls started to play heart attack and bluff. I really dun like bluff, Im not good at lying. Then later the guys finish eating time about 10 plus I guess, then we play game plan by them. They print the class photo of 3a, 3b, 4a, 4b and then we were to pick and then find ppl who match up to the same photo and then guess the classmate with all face covered! Heng I got 3b, which I think is easier for me. Then heng nv lose ah! If forfeit is find neighbour ask for rubbish, chocolates and take pics. After that play the acting and guessing game and they never forfeit. Then countdown, play card and drink sprite with vodka as forfeit. End of the day almost all the guys where so drunk, face so red. Then they went home, we stay with poh li, george, jun hong and a drunk Stamford. Stamford went to bed, jun hong sent others home, we played cluedo! Nice game!

Went to jjjj house to pick up our bag at 7 plus, after some time Elaine and me decided to go home then reach home I K.O until 2.15, wanted to go back to bed but too hungry, wake up want to cook maggi mee, to my horror! My house ran out of maggi mee all thanks to my brother! Eat bread and elaine’s mom de love letter.

Went out with dad and sis to do some grocery shopping at yew tee at 6, now im tired and sleeping real soon!

OH, I cut my hair, real short right now. Pics will be uploaded asap ^-^ happy new year!

Updates

2007-12-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

I am so lazy to online this few days, I would rather watch SCV than coming online. Suddenly just feel that online is boring. When I on my laptop, I will sign in msn hang my name there, check my school stuff, check email and browse blog, that it. I am even so lazy and busy to blog.

I am really tired this few days, ever since the start of the school holiday, I have not been sleeping early, almost everyday I went to bed on 2 am and woke up at 9 or 10 plus even my mom complaint about my dark eye rings.

There are so much things in my waiting list to be done, im so tired. I have to complete the fyp report by next week and yet I have so much doubt about it. Alternate days I have to work, I hate to go to work this few days.

For the past weekend I met lao pos. we watched Alvin and the chipmunks and phototaking.

Writing cards

Weekdays were just work and fyp. Mom went overseas on Thursday, only I sent her to airport, I see her walk through the gates and waving bye to me. She ask me to go home, everytime see her leaving I felt like crying, hold myself tight today and I did not cry but the feeling was there. I guessed I have grown up.

She called me and sms me when she is on the plane. Reached home about 7.30 watched tv and eat dinner. Got to go to bed now, tomorrow got to work.

12.35am

MUST WATCH

2007-12-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

飛輪海 & S.H.E - 新窩MV..

they are so cute!!!

飛輪海 - 小小大人物...very nice mtv!!! MICKEY MOUSE!!!

anyone wan buy me their new album?? HAHAZ

UrgE

2007-12-13T23:44:00.001+08:00

How I wish I have never ending sum of money...

Strong Urge to spend some money

No Mood in studying since tml is the last paper for this year...

Boring cause 2007 gone soon, why not have 730 days a year?

time time time

2007-12-05T00:53:00.001+08:00

A sudden urge to blog when I am suppose to study for my Friday understanding test. But I just cannot get myself to study, my mind is far away and I am just forcing myself. AND its 12.45am already

A sudden feel of why should we work so hard in life, I feel so tired. Time are just passing so fast, instead of me spending my time, I am chasing after time.

4 years after graduating
1 year to 21st
Few months away from 20
7 to 8 years before marriage

Im so scare now, real scare. Should I keep looking at the past and saying how beautiful it is or should I look ahead and counting how near are they from me. SHOO go away, can they don't come so fast, im just so irritated by time time time..

Time is X1000 worst than money. No money at least you can work or loan, but for time even you are the richest man in the world, you can never buy extra time.

Life....

2007-12-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Life is just like a board game.
You never know what is coming ahead
As you proceed, you learn and gain
You start to fulfill your mission in life
and till the end you feel the completeness of yourself.

Attended my cousin wedding last night, she is a very beautiful bride. She is a very beautiful girl by nature. Since young, I see her as a big sister and now she had grown so old that she got married. Life is so amazing and time past so fast now she has a duty as a wife.

Her dinner is full of tears and laughter. Video in the morning was aired, and I guess it was really funny in the morning when the groom comes fetch the bride. There is also a short animation. She thanked her mom and I think it is really touching. I even nearly cried, tears were rolling in my eyes. Stop and look back, your parents are really working hard to groom you and finally you are an adult already now you have to leave the shade of your parents and live in another family, a family of your own, I guess I understand how she feels. After everything, we took family photo. She hugged all the aunts and she cried, I guess that is really call gratitude and fulfillment of life.

Pretty Bride...

All the cousins...(no one is looking at this cam)

Me with my cousins..so cute

most satisfied pic of the day~ no fat hand~

I have spent my 19 years of life already, less than half a year later I will be 20, if I want to get married at 26-29, it would be about 10 years down the road, and for a marriage it takes a year to plan.

10 years seems long but actually its not that long after all, for my life next 10 years, I would need to meet the wrong people, find a life long partner, get my degree, and get a stable job. There are so much things that need to be done for the coming 10 years, who can imagine that the day will come, it will just be at a blinked of eyes.

At the age of 6, I said I don't want to attend primary school and look how amazing, I make it through and now I am a graduating polytechnic student. Who will know what is instill for us tomorrow..

2007-11-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

First of all, happy birthday to Elaine aka ebine. LOLS

Thursday was a real busy and rush day. Finally collected my gown and now I am on the way to slim down. Rush home and my mom fetch me to jurong point since she will pass by on her way to work.

Met ShuangX2, so long never see her le she really slim down a lot and really tall! We ate Billy Bombers and the food is so big portion and so full. After that, eat the donut she bought. Really nice! Then we took cab home. Tired after the whole day or rushing.

Friday went to work with a very bad mood about the fyp and stuffs. During break fei shan come find me then we all go pasta mania eat lunch. Very full and then at night really tired until cannot. Still I watch gong zhu xiao mei until 2.30 am. I skipped some parts because so exciting and still I wan sleep. HAHA.

Saturday have to thanks Jessica and Elaine lao po pei me go CWP. I spotted one heels seems not bad and never buy cause my mom say sliver cannot match but still I am going down to buy tomorrow. Dun care haha.

Today is finally a weekend that I don’t have to go out and study. So I slack my time playing my NDS and wash the pile of clothes. Evening I went to jjjj hse to play mahjong with Elaine too. sigh there will be school again tomorrow. So boring when I am counting down 3 more weeks to holiday.

update

2007-11-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

So fast it's the ending of November. This November is very busy one and I seems to pass every of my week unknowingly. I really hate to always remind myself it's the starting of the month and coming the end of the month because it just infer that time have past and I have to plan the things for the coming month.

Last Saturday went to celebrate Elaine and jess birthday, it was short celebration with fun and accident all over. First I and jjjj lost our way to collect the cake then we were late, then sky doesn't seem to be very cooperative to be windy. When I lighting the sparkles I burned my hand, for that moment I still did not feel the pain, but the effect came after that, numbness and pokey pain. I am useless, I cried.

the ebine was so wrong...was supppose to be elaine can~!

Burned hand :(

Dinner was steamboat and went home on the train we saw Nat Ho. Not bad looking.

How 2 slim down with all the good food around me??!!!

Sunday I woke up late for work, end up 30 minutes late and I worked full shifted, was pissed by one staff, but after that was fine. Work full shift almost want my life, so tired.

Tomorrow will be a busy day because I have test after school and I need to collect my gown, after that meet shuang and Elaine for dinner at jurong point.

Past days updates

2007-11-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

Past days updates:

Tuesday went jogging with ying jia and her classmate, grace. People from OB can really run. I really cannot imagine myself running from my house all the way to BBDC. Very far. I walked at some parts cause I haven been running since secondary schools day. It is really hard down on me.

We took one good hours to finish everything, the 2 girls had never stop moving their legs, they are just so pro. Finally finish the run and I almost fainted, really so giddy and felt like puking. If it haven been for the gown on December and the coming Chinese new year I dun even give a great big damn to run. HAHAHA. Until now my legs are still aching. OUCH!

Wednesday met J2EYS because Tuesday is our second anniversary and we met on wed to exchange the cards made, I must say the cards made by everyone is great~ its so lovely. We ate pizza and then took neoprints and funny pictures using JJJJ camera. I simply love them so much.

Came home read at the card and kept them inside my box where my cards are kept, it had been so full that I could not even cover it now. HAHA. After that have to study my test on Thursday.

The test yesterday is just so tough, there is 3 questions with a number of parts like a b c. out of 3 questions I could only do 2, the last question I am just so stunted by it, I only managed to write craps out of it. After test got FYP meeting, then met sis 6.45 to pick up the gown, mine still need some altering, so next Thursday I have to go down and pick it up.

By right, there is no school today, but later got another test so I have to be back in school and working after that. AND by right I should not be blogging because I am suppose to study, but well.. haha

Anniversary

2007-11-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah, yesterday is the day that j2eys finally celebrate the anniversary. I really very excited about yesterday, cause I have been counting down since October.

I was so excited that I could not get to sleep on Saturday dawn, I only managed to sleep at 3am. Woke up at 10 and start to prepare the food, then hurry shower and pack bag, before I left home, I remember the mat and rush to take, in the lift then I remember I forget all about my ez link. Rush home to take.

We only board train about 12.20 and reach vivo about 1 and reach Palawan at 1.30, just so nice the dolphin show started and we bought the tixs, but did not went in we go other slot. Find a spot and lay the mat, me and fang went to buy drinks while the rest unpack.

Elaine got bee hoon, jess chicken chunks, me wu xiang, fang bring something like popiah and ying jia agar agar. We eat until so full and time was almost 3. Then later we decided to leave our bags at the locker near the washroom and go out to play.

Five container, each one colour and is our fav colour

YuM
Me and fang-ny
J2EYS~

a complete pic and jia and elaine

The j2eys was written near the bridge, so when people passby, they just take the pics, please j2eys is a copyright stuff, hopefully they don’t use or abuse this logo. To disrupt them, I ask Elaine to stand in the middle of the j2eys, haha. Finish taking all this pics and was almost 5, we haven soak in water, so we decide to cross back the bridge and soak a bit of water till knee length, played games. After that 5.30 watch the dolphin show, walk all the way back to the washroom and shower. Then was almost 7.30 then we decide to go underwater world.
from left, S, Y, E, J, J
I really don’t like to see fishes, crabs too close to me, all the way long, I felt so disgusted and wanted to puke. The only thing I like was the anti-global warming poster and the jellyfish. I really very curious about them. Finish is already 9. went back to vivo top floor and find a place to finish the picnic food. Took 188 home and I was sleeping soundly.

somemore pics with fang..waiting~

2007-11-03T14:09:00.000+08:00

1 November 2007, Thursday

There are so many things to blog that I do not know where I should start from. I should blog the happy stuff instead of complaining again.

J2EYS anniversary is nearing and I can’t wait to go out with lao pos. When I am out with them, I can forget about all my worries and just laugh at our silliness and lameness. With them around I feel ease, perhaps fun time is always better as compared to the time when we are fighting with stress.

Yesterday went out with lao pos except jess. We went to Jurong point to watch the movie “Brothers” and Elaine lao po have 2 free tix so each person did not pay so much. After this few days accumulated stress, I really feel much better after the movie, ice cream and nugget meal treat from ah fang lao po.

Now I am having a very serious sore throat because I had been eating the heaty stuff and neglecting my plain water. Things for the anniversary are rather fixed and I hope I will not get sick at that period of time.

11 pm

3 November 2007, Saturday

Yesterday during my work, saw Mr raja, TWSS former DM came into the restaurant to have his dinner with his wife. I guess he dun remember my name but he got some idea after I mention elaine~ haa.

I was so sick yesterday, the sore throat got worst and I went hungry for dinner and flu came, bought “luo han guo” drink to drink, it was so not nice and the blackness made me scared . Today wake up, the throat was not so pain but coughing. No chicken for me..sadden. later got my cousin 21 birthday to attend and I sure there will be chicken wings, so either I have to resist or eat like nobody’s business. Haha

2.08pm

2007-10-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

At the verge of breaking down and yet what can I do? Perhaps I only know how to cry.

As I grow older then I realize, growing up is not easy at all, its not fun at all...

Jolyn is good at something yet nothing~...HUH!

2007-10-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

Another week coming to an end, and there comes November, times seems to pass so fast unknowingly.

As usual I had no lesson on Wednesday and I stayed at home cooking lunch for me and mom, then clear rubbish in my lappy because there are so many shows inside that cause my laptop to lag like window 3.1 (first version of window).

Well, I feel that I had been so used to complaining, no matter is in terms work, school or even home. Complaint had seems to become a habit of mine, a very bad habit, I guess I must change for the better: to have more tolerance over stuffs.

Did I mention that my family will not be going to the Bangkok trip that was mention not long after my trip back from Genting? My dad say its dangerous, and yes news is saying there have been signs of flooding there. Today we went out for dinner, and my dad told me that the founder of genting highland group passed away, hmm felt a bit sadden can I have a share of his wealth?

For the month of Nov, I will be so busy, every of my weekend had been occupied by now, and looking at the test timetable, I will be so dead. But not that bad, I will have one week of break during the Deepavali week.

Today I end class so early, I end at 3.15 and my friend have test so I went home with Bel, she was craving for donuts after a few rounds of toilet for her in the morning. So I decided to accompany her to buy and bought some home too! I agreed to buy because of some post in shuangX2 blog that craved me. YUMMY donuts~!!! AND finally I remember to take pictures~ so rare of me. HAHAHA

out of my hunger, I ate this:
I am a person who dislike strawberry because in some food there is one weird smell, Bel recommend me this and i thought it's not bad~worth trying..

Reach home at around 4.30 and I watched tv, at the MTV chi channel, I saw jay chou: nui zai hen mang mtv and also zai zai: wo bu shi F4. Got the strong urge to but their album, im so dead, pay haven even come in and the thought of spending had come. I must control! I have to pay lots of debt first and I haven even for from driving~ sighs. I guess I am also good at something too, saying and not doing it. BIG SIGHS.

YawnZ

2007-10-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Work for the weekends is tiring, and Sunday I finish work at 10.45pm. So late and I have to wake up early on Monday for school. I felt so tired. I complained about the tough job at JP and I swear never to go there again because the work there is so tiring and people just do not haven team work.

Tuesday test to me was rather easy and it cause me to worry because from what I experience it should not be so easy so I guess there must be something wrong, I think I just fill in all the answers wrongly.

After my test, I met jess and shuo ke at lotie 1. We just slack at the shop beside arcade, sat down and talk crap. Elaine came at 6.30 and we wetn for dinner while shuo ke go home. I was so hungry by then. I ate my lunch at 10 and until 6 plus then eat dinner, I was so freaking hungry that after our dinner at pasta mania, they accompany me to mac for an ice cream cone. At there to our surprise we saw jia jia de god ma and her kids.

edmun pics are in elaine hp..

After I reach home, I was so tired that I watched tv and lie flat on the sofa and do not want to move. I finish my school work and went to bed. I did not complete the work that I was suppose to complete. Sadden

Changes to my schedule:
I will be working tomorrow.

Friday a and b
Sat a

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2007-10-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Fast fast de blog cause late le and tomorrow I got to work.

Jay new song “niu zai hen mang” is nice~ wanna buy his album.

Test coming one Tuesday and Thursday yet got no urge to study, started to count down how many days before my holiday and counting down when would I leave RP.

Work is slightly lighter as compared to the past, but my back still ache. Im old.

Schedule for the coming days:
Tml (jp): 10.30 – 3, 5-10

Sunday (jp): 5 – 10

Friday (cwp): 10.30 – 3, 5-10

Sat (cwp): 10.30 – 3

Sunday(cwp): 10.30 – 3

Im tired yet my hair haven dry yet. Hopefully tomorrow Elaine lao po can come meet me and we can shop shop together.

Genting trip

2007-10-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

Im back from the very exciting and fruitful Genting trip. Saturday morning, I woke up at 5.30am to prepare my stuff and get ready to go to beach road to board the coach. We board bus at 7.30 and I am so excited. The coach is the “cao yuan kuai ce” in Singapore they cannot activate the facilities only until when we reach Malaysia custom.

Get down the bus at the Singapore and Malaysia custom, after that the facilities on the bus were so good, I watch doreamon and also Donald duck. The chair was so good and after a breakfast break, I board the bus and fell a sleep. There were a few stops where we get to have toilet breaks. On the way up to the hilltop, it rained and I felt sad. Reach Genting at 2.30 and we check in at Resort hotel. The room got 2 queens size bed and the toilet and bath rooms were separated. Basin was outside, the bathroom is so small.

After unpacking stuff, we went to the indoor theme park to have our lunch. My little cousin (the one I took picture with at the Desaru trip) saw the merry go round, and wanted to take the ride, so my eldest aunt went to but the tix. She is so persist that she want to ride the horse that she like and my aunt had to help her find the horse.

After the ride, we ate KFC, the price is almost the same as Singapore. But the adults conclude that the chicken tasted nicer. Because my cousin parents were not there as they have to look after the younger child at the hotel, I got the chance to fed her, I peel the chicken for her. So nice, really can be mother liao. HAHAHA. Later the parent came then they ate and we go off to the outdoor theme park, I played everything except the water boat ride, because when we finish, it around 7.30 and we had to go off for dinner. The best ride I had was:

I was so scare when I sat on it, the sit were not tight and I got so scared that I started to shiver partly because it is cold too. It went up and I hold on so tightly, after that it reach the top, we had to wait for it to fall, I open my eyes a bit and DOWN it go, my mouth was opened but no sound came out, can imagine how scare I was. Those 360 degree ride was nothing to me already. Haha

We finish our dinner and around 10 plus we reach the hotel, we shower and the adults were going to the casino. I cannot go, my dad waited till 11.30 and he fell asleep, so we all sleep at 11.30. woke up at 7 and make coffee. 8 plus we went down to this shop and ate breakfast, the things inside were chip and dale, so I asked my dad to buy me the happy meal so I can have the toy. HAHAHA, got a key chain. After that I bring my cousin and my brother to the snow city, really cold inside and the slide were much better than the one in Singapore. When we came out, our pants were not wet at all.

After that we went to arcade and played, we went back late to the hotel and we got no time to shower. After that we left and ate lunch. 2 plus we board the bus and left genting. On the way back I did not sleep much and it was pouring. When we are having dinner, my brother bought a packet of bubble gum and he was so scare that he will be caught of buying bubble gum, everyone in the bus is scaring him end up I have to smuggle for him (pray hard police dun read this post). We alighted behind Tang dynasty and reach home around 10.

My dad just came and tells me that November my aunts are going to Bangkok and December they are going KL. I don’t think we can go overseas so frequent because $$$.

I seriously think that if my lao pos all can make it after my poly graduation, Genting will be a fun trip for us.

Pics:

FoggY~

look calm?? I am so scare when i took this pic ( my dad and my eldest aunt, btw she is 52 this yr, so daring hor)

WhhEeeEEe

On the merry go round

My cousins (left one 5 yr old, right one pri 3)

Let the picture do the talking~

2007-10-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

21 sept, Fri :

Our lantern

22 sept, Sat:

Went kbox, and then to jess ah ma house.

26 sept, wed: Had my PP presentation, was so scare and worry, but the outcome was fine i guess.

28 sept, fri:

Finally all of us were present. Met jess at 172, headed down to JP, and meet elaine there, go find fang fang, then wait for jjjj, then later eat dinner and some shopping. back to mega playground, we were preparing the candles and stuff while waiting fang fang to arrive cause she went supper with chio papa. when we are preparing, gosh i saw a meteor, i faster make a wish(secret). But I guess the chances are slim, cause it is not the first time i saw it in cck and dreams had always not come true. Im a greedy human.

i love this pic, we look relax...

Self relfection:

Proceeding to the last semester of year 3, I start to ponder, why time pass so fast but yet we look forward to the days ahead and not cherishing the days now.

Days had been hard in school with projects to rush and giving the best shot in lesson. Human’s nature is to complaint when they tends to get too stressed, so I guess after all the dislike and complaints, work still have be done so that we can all graduate.

Started to miss the days when I study and memories stuff off the textbooks, staying up late and woke up early in wee hours to mug. No matter how much we misses about the past, we cannot turn back, we only can look back, regret regret and regret.

Saying things that we want to do is easy, but when it comes to doing it, I guess reluctant comes is not that easy after all.

Looking at the bright side is always good, but why the clouds just seem to move in and envelop the light.

suay

2007-09-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

After that “lucky” orange went into my stomach, nothing good did actually happen I guess. Monday and Tuesday lesson is fine.

Today is bad. I know that the whole day I need to rush to school, come back home and then back to school for my presentation. So for today basically I need to rush up and down.

First I need to reach school at 9.30. I woke up slightly later cause I fell asleep after the rang. But I still manage to go out on time. Bad things came, this guy when alighting the bus, do not know what the heck and how, he step on my slipper! Then my slipper snap, the centre part came out, so its spoilt and I am rushing to school. He did ask if I am ok, and he wanted to fix it for me, but how, I am in a rush. So I said “nevermind”, I fixed it myself. Then after to the platform, I got very angry.

My slipper cost me $20 and because I on my mp3 quite loud and holding a comic in my hand I just faster fix and gone off, never ask for compensation! So stupid! (hey that guy, I guess I remember your face ok, better stay further away from me if u see me again!) . Then at woodlands, I walk to school, then I called my mom and complaint to her, because on the way of walking, it kept on coming out.

Managed to fix it after reaching the school. But was late for the meeting about 10 minutes. The meeting lasted for 1 hr and 20 minutes, first time it last for so long. After that I rush home. And guess what, when I am under my block. One of my 9th storey malay neighbour passed away and the coffin was placed at the letterbox there, I would passby there. I was so scare. Reach home, prepare and rest.

To school for presentation, I reach so early, my presentation was suppose to be at 3.40 and reach 20 minutes earlier but I reach at 3. so I call Elaine lao po cause im scare and then I went to library recall my stuff, then I go into the hall. My booth changed and I did not saw the notice until my friend came over to take a look, went to my booth and wait for the previous girl to finish, she started late and then end at 3.50, so mine was dragged back. I was the last batch and I am the last one to present finish, gosh. But overall the presentation I guess was good.

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2007-09-23T22:58:00.001+08:00

Wednesday:
Went back to school for FYP, stress coming up because there is so much things to be done. and worst of all, the system changed final presentation will have 6 teachers questioning, they will ask 3 members to go out and you alone have to stay in to answer questions. OH MY.

Thursday:
Last day of first week, lesson was fine, but realize that this class will be the most competitive among the 3.

Friday:
Celebrating mid-autumn festival with lao pos except jess cause she have to work. Around 4 I met fang to go to AMK hub, bought a pencil case cause last week I realize I have no pencil case and my stuff are lying all around. Worst of all, I cannot remember what pencil case I used in secondary school. After shopping, we went to the comic shop, we actually can stay there for more than an hour. I lend 11 books home to read, to be returned 2 weeks later. We rush back to meet Elaine lao po.

Dinner at LJS and did some fast shopping. We left and to teck whye to buy sparkles. Then later go sun shine place buy lantern. So funny dunno y travel to teck whye. I tink cause we are afraid my house here dun have. Went to mega playground and wait for JJJJ to come. We went to the basketball court to play. Asked jun hong to come down and pass us his lantern and ended up he stay with us and see us play and take pic for us. Went home around 12. Happy!

Upon reaching home, I saw the lights in the house on and no one using in addition, the house is in a mess and I got really pissed. I was so sticky so there is a bit of temper, but when I go into the kitchen, I see the pot of soup there, the chrysanthemum tea pot also there and worst of all bowls that was used was just left on the table tip, my anger came! I just wash all and kept to quite, but my heart is cursing and swearing.

I really don’t understand people who are so reliant on their boyfriend. Once they are quarreling or broke up. They just spend the day like time is all theirs, time is plentiful, life is meaningless, rotting their life off and lazy. LOOK, there are more important things on earth that you can do, go out there and see how many people are fighting with the time, how I wish I have more. If you think that you are most pitiful that you are out of love, please this is the least pitiful out of all. Stop clinging on the past, look forward there are more things awaiting, dun stick on the past then realize you have miss out a lot.

The guy would be so happy that this stupid girl that used to be his is no longer his, and that he finally get rid of a stupid girlfriend because this girlfriend only know how to rely on people and cling onto the past.

(PHEW, im done!)

Then today went out with lao pos without fang, hais always missing people. The time spent was fun. Then at night went to Jessica’s ah ma house there for an event. Ivan and Jeremy from her work place join her. We tried to chat but the atmosphere was so bad. later we are being con to join. Haha. Then we ate dinner, and went to see lion dance.

The lion dance’s lion was throwing orange, and trick the kids to take, and kids started hitting it. Then at certain point of time, they really throw the orange out. Jess mom go and snatch, then later they throw, I was not standing right in front, and the orange just came in between my foot, oh my I did not know what to do, I almost take up my feet and kick it. But I too it up, and jess told me I can have it, I was so scare, but she told me is for good luck, so I took it. Then I so scare that I sms my mom and ask. Cause when I am young, my mom said never to take things from stranger and from the floor. HAHA.

Reach home around 10.30. tired. I have lots of things that are yet to complete. DIE

CLose iT b4 words flood u

2007-09-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Long update coming, not interested can just leave cause I guess it will be boring. HAHA.

Friday finally get to meet lao pos J2EYS for dinner at rajah inn. Nice I skip lunch and I go there really eat, but the bad part was, before I go for shower to prepare to go out, I had a very bad abdomen pain. It was so bad that I am rolling on my mom bed. Later I meet jess at alighting and fang on train and Elaine at JE.

Reach there we order food and eat and eat, fun and nice food, on the way home, we were loud on MRT and there is this girl look at us. After that we alight at CCK and went to mac to chat a bit and then went home.

The weekends I am rushing my PP poster and till now I had sort of completed. Monday school reopens, I went to bed early and yet I could not go to sleep until 1.

Monday was a complete new class, well some of the classmate I know. The class is small and the teacher put in a lot of hard work and I like the class. But too bad, we had to shift class everyday.

Today was same class with sherry, the girl with we had some misunderstanding. Went into class and I was 6th to reach, she was already there, but I sat in another table and guess what, we were allocated same team with her, but luckily we still can work, I guess perhaps things were not as bad as I taught it would be.

Tomorrow FYP meeting start at 2.30, I met the team at 1.30 to brief through everything before meeting the teacher. I will be presenting the PP poster on 26 September, wish me luck ok, I really need to pass this individual project.

Friday hopefully can play with candles, since young moon cake festival is always the festival I look forward to, this is the time where I would play with candles and sweat a lot. Even younger, my aunt will bring me downstairs and buy lantern. I still remember I had a lantern which is a princess, me and my sister have the similar one, so my mom stick our name at the bottom. As I get older, i do not play with all this, it changes to even budget de paper lantern, once at the seaside mine even got burn. Everyone laughed at me.

Last thing to inform. My cousin will be having her wedding dinner on coming December. Guess what, her wedding stated that even lady had to come in gown and man wear suit. Oh my, look at me, look at my body how to wear a gown. Well….

2.04 am

2007-09-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

Wow look at the time now, 1.41 am. It’s really late and I do not have the mood to sleep, perhaps because of the holiday period I had been sleeping late and I cannot get into deep sleep, one noise will just wake me up.

Monday I got my class roster, I only have to school on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. As for Wednesday as usual at most I have to go back till 12pm. There is so much time for me next semester. I have to work or do something useful and not waste my time off. Saying about my class roster, I happen to be same class for one module with this girl which 5 girls have conflict with. I hope to view it in a way that it is not that I am suay to be being placed in the same class as her but in a way that she is sent to test my patience and hopefully things turn out good and not as bad.

Also on Monday, I went back for the regular dental check-up, my doctor say that I had been maintaining my teeth well but just that I got the very wrong way of taking care of my gums. I even got a kind of gum disease. On the spot, she refers me to another doctor which would clean and polish my teeth. I expected to bleed a lot but I never thought that it would be so pain, I even weep. The moment I open my eyes, inside is all filled with water and the blood never seems to stop. By the time I get to see the mirror, my gums are all reddish. PAIN. I really advice people who had not seen a dentist faster go for one, if not the pain will accumulate and it gets real bad.

4 days before school reopen and I had not complete my stuff that I am suppose to do during this holiday, I am really a good talker but my body just get rusty and not move. I better finish that poster by today.

Hmm look at the sky, going to rain soon, the wind are howling. Will I get a good sleep tonight? Please I really need some rest before I break down. Friday hopefully will get to meet all lao po and we can have a nice chat and a nice dinner.

During my free time, I always imagine everyone of them getting married and really felt happy for them, well as for me, im lost, cause I cannot even know what is the next step.

337 words post

2007-09-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

Ahhhchooo, is not that I am sick, but is this blog very long never update and it got dusty. HAHA. I got a lot of things to write about but also like not a long of things to blog about (blurred).

Last weekend watched hairspray with jess, Elaine, JJJJ(ying jia) and of course me! nice show. We are late for the movie so we ran from one end of Vivo to another end of it. If I happen to knock onto anyone, I am really very sorry about that >.< . After the show, ate Ben and Jerry for lunch, me and JJJJ share one Big ice cream(cannot remember the name), after that we walk up and down of a part of Vivo because we simply don't know where to go. After that we bought a cake for JJJJ dad and went off.

On bus 188, everyone seems to fell asleep, and after we alight JJJJ went to meet family to eat dinner, so the rest pack food and come to my house. Because of the full-load of ice cream and perhaps the shakiness of the bus, after I woke up, my stomach was pain like as if it had burst and I was concluded having gastric pain. At my house we slack a bit then over to JJJJ house.

Basically I am having my holiday so I am slacking my day off everyday. Wake up, play NDS, surf website, MSN, watch TV, sometimes cook dinner for family. Just waiting for the day to pass. BORING.

Got back my results on Wednesday, to me I feel that it was ok, don't have a too high expectation if not I will just stress myself.

Today went out with Elaine, JJJJ and fang. Shopped from orchard to bugis and to bukit panjang plaza, now my body is aching all over. I spent too much today. Heels, necklace, pimples/ black head extractor and a watch for my brother.

Friday J2EYS can finally get together after so long. I’ll be waiting.

TWSS trip

2007-09-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

It' s the eve of teachers' day and also the last day of august. Went back to TWSS with Elaine and it brought back tons of memory. Some good memory well it comes with bad ones too.

The stairs that we used to walk to canteen, the usual place we sat in canteen, the art room that I spend most of my time drawing, the long walk way that I dread to walk every weekdays at 6.55 am. The walls that I used to touch, the railing that I used to hold, the parade square which sun used to shine at one side of my face, the gallery which I used to sit at, the hall that I used to look at had all became memories of mine. (Pls let the pictures in your memory start flashing)

The school is old, the school started to crack everywhere. Maybe one day it will be torn down just like bukit panjang secondary. The old teck whye will soon be gone, although it look scary, but I still like the school with all the old trees and squirrel jumping about and morning birds trying to stop all the naggings.

Saw some teacher, some were still as strict as before which I felt stress when she started to scold student, some were friendly we can talk all around. Mdm Sharena baby girl, Farah is so cute.

How many times had I told myself to forget about it? And how many times I'm faced with failure of doing so. Can someone feed me amnesia pill, I want to get rid this part of my memory.

Ella - 薔薔

2007-08-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

look at this..i felt sad and cried when watching, hope you cherish the pet that you have.

Ella說：「我何其幸運有薔薔這樣這麼愛我的寵物，雖然牠現在到天上當小天使了，但我相信牠會保佑所有愛牠的人，牠也會希望我將對牠的愛，分送給所有需要幫助的動物們。」

I guess we must not only cherish pet but also the people around us.

COnfuseD

2007-08-28T23:41:00.001+08:00

Had been looking at horoscope this few days because I am ~~too free~~ too lazy to do work. I am not compatible with Leo guys, but it turn out to be compatible with Libra, the horoscope which I sort of dislike most.

Let me see what I had done this few days. Sunday at grandpa house I was a great helper to my aunt because I help to them prepare some prayers stuff. Monday I did some house work and then went out to meet Elaine and Jess lao po for lunch. After lunch was our usual activity: roaming around lot one thinking where to go. After that I bought a comic and we went to mac and slack, jess is reading the book, Elaine and I was planning the activities for coming Saturday the gathering of j2eys. That night I finish reading the comic.

Today I basically did nothing. When I wake up I just play DS all day long because I wanted to complete the cake mania I am addicted to it. But in the morning I did something, I went to find for job using the newspaper. Out of 2 job, one was quite attractive, it is a clinic at redhill. Short hours, but the pay end up also little. I need to go down and fill in the form, I am so confused to take up the job or not. Im scared because need to commit around 6 months.

Tomorrow there is a lot of stuff to be done. First morning I need to go back school for fyp meeting after that I need to go Nokia to fix my HP. In the evening have to decide to go fill in the job form or not.

So much things coming up, Genting trip, Malaysia trip, cousin marriage and then December they want to go gold coast, I want to go too, but $$..

Check it out!

2007-08-26T21:26:00.001+08:00

Check this out...derrick de blog...omg...his 9 yrs old voice so cute, I guess he shld be a lovable boy ...http://derrickhoh.livejournal.com/ add this to ur favourite ok~

TauruS~

2007-08-26T09:50:00.000+08:00

I received a e-mail from my friends. Subject "Horoscope, very true!!!", I decided to open up and take a look, I had seen this before, seems to be quite true because every horoscope is divided into man and woman. Taurus woman:

A slim moderately tall woman (look at me, I guess you are wrong). Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person (ok). Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone (Nope, i got round face) . Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. (Well, it shouldn't be stated in this way, should say that we have good memory~)

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement(true, hey i need new excitement). She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before (not so true). She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there (Well, i give up sometimes will give up) . She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life (NO~ to me money is impt). She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl (Hello, i love romance ok~). You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home (I want to be "huang lian po" how can i dun like to work at home?).

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals (True). Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection (true, dun reject me ok). She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom (erm, I prefer leo guys who is possessive that means freedom is not that impt la). Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom. (Weird paragraph, ALL WRONG! haha)

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. (the dressing part is right, but the smart and get along with crowds...hmm...)

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life (I am a jealous type at times). She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more (a bit true). Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face (LOLS, i did not know abt this) but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".

She always remember her first love (HMM..pending). Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness".

She has lots of friends and sure of herself (i did not have lots of friends la), so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge (NO, no men). She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough (Erm..). She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars.(HAHA, true) She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else. She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously (Yes.) . If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. (It's ok AT TIMES not to pay la)

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

2007-08-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

Yes is the last day of class and I love this class, although the bond is not very good but we can communicate with each other. Did not manage to ask for a treat from this teacher because he very law by law, we treat him he also dun wan giving the reason that he cannot accept offers because he is a civil servant and it is like a bribe if he does that.

Lesson is light and fun. After lesson I slack a bit in class and went to Bugis to meet jia jia lao po. On the train I play my NDS until I almost forget to get down at city hall. Haha clumsy jolyn after all. After I saw her, we are fast, she eats then we walk, then she got 2 jeans for her coming attachment within the first hour. As for me, I bought a ring then we went for dinner.

After dinner we went to this fashion and I bought a shirt, this shirt made me and jjjj very exhausted because it is a funny shirt, but in the end I bought it. Usual price 22, and got discount so is 17.60 I think. I actually want to get another shirt from another shop de but I think no more le.

When we were waiting for bus, it started to rain and pour, the lighting were in purple colour and made us so scared, worst still both of us are scare of thunder and lighting, everyone must be thinking that we are very weird right jjjj. We chat a lot on the bus, I guess I enjoy going out with my lao po even is individually.

I believe that when the god gave us something good, they will in return take something from us that we cherish.

He gave me friend (lao pos) that I thought I would never had, but in return, he took my family warmth away.

He gave me nice hair and big eyes; in return he gave me bad figure.

He gave me no problems about financial at home but gave me bad-temper.

He gave me brain and wisdom but it came quite late.

He gave me good choices but in return im confused

There is much more to be mentioned. . And we as human is always not satisfied. I think he also had a hard time deciding what to give and what to take.

My NDS lite

The cover i bought
With the white protection cover
The ring i bought today.

RUBBISH

2007-08-22T12:56:00.000+08:00

The last week of lesson so my classmate, bel was planning to “sai ko” all the 4 facilitator that we have to treat us. Friday my facilitator treat us to munchy donut, it was nice. Then come Monday, the facilitator is a assistant director of SEG so supposing he should be loaded but he is so strict that he do not want to treat us. The saddest things is that the next class faci treat them Pizza hut, sadden. HAHAHA.

Yesterday the only female teacher that we got was so reluctant to treat us. She said she only got chocolates to treat us, so she gave us time out and mars. The lesson start earlier at 1.30 and ended at 2.17. then after some talking, she decided to treat us to the pod W4 waffles. Yeah~ me and bel shared a chocolate one. Yummy~. Tomorrow we will have a nice guy faci, really much burn his pocket into a big hole. HAHAHA

I watch the new scary show “dead silence” in class with my classmate, the show is rather scary because the face s scary. Nice show, but ending..watch it yourself.

Yesterday night oh no should be today morning, my sis and I fought with a moth at 12.15 and almost till 1. No one dares to kill it (look at the month now) and my sister kept screaming. I am super scare. But in the end who ask it to fly towards my sis, she use a book and slam it landed up below the book. Flat. Until now, no one is clearing up it dead body it was left in my room.

This few days I had been following the news. The sad thing from the news is that we as a Singaporean were encouraged to work even after the age of 55. That means the retire age is older. GOSH look, if at the age of 55 we retire and start working at 20, then we will work for 35 years. Wow work for more than half of my life, im dead. They even expect us to plan our savings to the age of 85. So old, I guess Im not going to make it.

Holiday starts on Friday, I seriously need a job, Im running out of money.

never ending of complaints

2007-08-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

FYP presentation was a pile of rubbish from us, I guess until now, no point groaning over spilled milk, I guess I have to get myself up and get my team working harder for the next half for the project.

Im planning the meeting of the team during holiday, its so scary when now is mid August and I am looking at mid of September. I am planning a month ahead how fast time past, we are almost 3/ 4 of the 2007 and approaching 2008 in no time.

Sometimes I really ponder why am I single, why I just could not get someone to be with or and there for me. The fireworks today was a disappointment because of the last episode show at 7pm and the ending is rubbish cause there is second part in December.

As for tomorrow, others have to study for their exam and I am the only one free that means either I don’t watch it or I go alone. I did not catch any fireworks this year, I really want one. How nice would it be if someone were to do it just opposite my block.

3 days left to school end for this semester, I urgently need to find a job to avoid everything that is coming into my life.

不想一直对着空中伸着手，期待谁来牵着我往前走。我会握紧我的拳头，努力的往前冲。

我最不需要的就是梦想，最没兴趣的就是恋爱，我不会让自己有希望落空的机会，应为没有期望，就不会有失望。

有一个傻女孩在等一个笨男孩。。。

How weird humans can get, only tends to remember how sad they can be and not how happy they are. Sad songs start to play when they are sad, Popping loud music playing when they are happy, so what song to play when we are happy that can satisfy out needs?

Im a greedy human, I am not a human that does not greed. When I have the things I want, I want more and more, nothing will satisfy my appetite.

I am a bad tempered. I got split personality. I am just not what you think I am. Who is that I see in the mirror?

Class photo on 16/8

GIVE ME BACK

2007-08-14T09:01:00.000+08:00

My confidence level has been dropping, my energy level had been depreciating. Somebody must have stolen my confidence, please give me back, I urgently need it for tomorrow FYP presentation.

Im at the verge of breaking down, my dark rings can compete with the panda in zoo, the amount of stress is as heavy as the globe.

my dream...

2007-08-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

A sudden feel that I am deprive from my dream. After much consideration, I decided to go to university because my lao po encourage to do so and I thought my family is financially capable. BUT just now, I think that is dream will forever stay as a dream.

Just now, my dad went into the room and tell my sis to pay her own school fees, her school fees is expensive because is private school, it goes up to 7000 per semester. I am thinking my dad must be kidding on her because I always did some calculation that his money is sufficient to spend on us, however my sis thinks it is possible that he cannot afford because sometimes she see my dad bank transfer money. GOSH, that means I cannot go university I have to come out and work to live on my own. No more university say bye to NUS. I just check, I think it will cost 6 thousand odd per year. OMG

Well, have to see what will happen in the coming months, no one knows what will happen.

dream, dreaming, dreamt...

2007-08-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

First of all, a happy belated happy 42nd birthday to Singapore. On 9/8 met Elaine, jia and fang lao pos. We went to kbox which in total cost us only 9.10, rather cheap as compared to other days. Jess lao po cannot make it because she went hiking with her family. But she managed to meet us at around 8 at jia house. We play and chat at JJJJ(jia jia jie jie or jie jie jia jia) house.

This few weeks had been rather stressed, other than the days met up with JEYS. I had terrible nightmares for almost 2 weeks which I think is caused by the stress. Sometimes, I will be awaken by the terrible nightmare in the middle of the night or in the dawn. When I woke up either the dream just get out of my mind or it will be stuck in my brain. During the daytime, I will keep pondering about the dream that I dreamt. I am so scare, so scare to sleep now, but I have no choice I need to sleep I’m tired I need rest.

FYP report was submitted yesterday and presentation will be on coming Wednesday, heard from the SIT student, their presentation was quite bad because they are being questioned down so hard by the teacher, im scared again.

Last time, I one week only happen to dream once, but now, it seems like everyday. Im worry.

Happy birthday to Adeline and jue tong.

FYP

2007-08-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

FREAKING YUCK PISSED
FUCKING YAYA PROJECT
FUCKING YUCK PUI~!

I'm damn pissed off with the things around me esp the damn FYP. Who cares right, dun you see the urgency to complete. Im here struggling to finish it because it all comes down to me and yet that ***king attitude of yours makes me so pissed off. WATEVER~

confused

2007-08-05T14:17:00.000+08:00

31 July 2007, Tuesday
I went to Bukit Batok to buy NDS lite. That causes me to be heavily in debt and broke currently. After that I meet Elaine jia and fang for dinner. After that we went to jjjj hse.

1 august 2007, Wednesday

Met J2EYS, I also sew a cover by myself for my NDS, the cover look budget but well no choice cannot afford to spend 10 bucks to buy a cover.

For the rest of the days I cannot remember what am I doing, affected by STM virus. HAHA.

Friday my sis treats me to secret recipe cake chocolate indulgent (hopefully spelled correctly) because she owes me too much to mention, triple yummy! Yesterday my dad birthday, we went to Plaza Singapura to eat Swensens. Well, of course the food is nice so is the ice-cream. The ice cream cake is the best. We ate Mango Tango, a highly recommended cake to try thou it is quite ex. We spent a total of 90 off a bit. Well it will be shared between my sis and me. Can imagine how broke I am now.

Worst still, I am going to the salon now to trim my hair all thanks to the long fringe and hot weather. Completed studying my tomorrow test, hopefully will get a grade A so can put my GPA up a bit.

Confusion of life is terrible. University versus working life, which would you prefer?
Studying makes me mad, playing too much makes me mad too.

Conquer the stress

2007-07-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

20 July 2007, Friday

Nice date today, 20.07.2007 seems like 2007 2007. So many things happen this few days, first is Thursday, got to know from Janice that the FYP presentation need to wear formal wear. Gosh where to find formal wear and of my size, I know can find but cannot be too expensive because I will be paying it myself.

Other than that, I saw the latest hot video clip of Steven Lim asking Wan Bao to sue Xia Xue, I think it's so stupid. They have grudges against one another but why they do not just settle it among themselves? How great is it that everyone in the world knows it now, it just shows the stupidity of themselves and giving the bad impression of Singaporean. Do not know why Xia Xue would do the disgusting meter entries in her blog and criticize everyone, so weird. Anyway, not my problem.
I guess I am really worn out from this week's hard work, I feel so drain off and body aching all over. I guess I need to hibernate for 2 days to regain my energy, sounds so like a bear.. Haha.

10.33pm

22 July 2007, Sunday

A busy weekend for me, Saturday meet Elaine and fang lao po to shop for my formal clothes that I need on August for my presentation. I am in a hurry to get it because currently got GSS and it is ending soon. We shop for the whole day to get my stuff. First we reach cwp, then we start walking, never see anything nice and we end up eating Swensens ice cream. Then we proceed to Jurong point by then it was like 7 plus, I went o Bega to get the black pants but the shirt was kind of short, but the one I saw at metro was 50 bucks. Then went to C&K to get my heels, have to collect at Cwp cause only Cwp have my size, so dumb at cwp dun wan to try when I saw it. Itch butt. haha

Then whole day of shopping make me so tempted to buy some stuff that I was not suppose to buy. I want to buy a bag at Metro which cause 50 bucks and then the Neckerman sandals. Before we left JP, I treat 2 laopo to bubble tea because they walk one whole day with me. Thanks.

When I reach home, I faster study for my 2 test that is on Monday and Tuesday. Gosh, then Monday test was on moments and kind of math so I cannot do it, I got stuck here and there and only manage to finish it at 2 plus. Today I study for the Tuesday test and it was also the same thing, maths again. I used almost 2 hours to do it.

11.00pm

24 July 2007, Tuesday

Yeappie, 2 consecutive tests is over! So relieve now,
but also imply that FYP presentation is nearing. Tomorrow got to shop for formal clothes with my team mates I hope I don't get too pissed off by the sudden bad temper of mine. Off to bed, got to wake up at 8 tomorrow to have FYP meeting at 10.

New blog..updates

2007-07-18T23:45:00.002+08:00

Finally manage to get my very new blog working again, I started it last week but things haven been up, and now it working.

I closed my previous blog because I was kind of lazy plus it is a very old blog. However, ever since I close down my blog, I haven been really monitoring my life, I seems to be very absent minded of what happen previous week thus I got myself a new blog.

Last weekend, went to Sebana Cove, Desaru for a runaway home relaxation. Kind of enjoy myself by eating like nobody business and no worries about school work. So much stories about my trip but I will write it other day because its so late now.

When I came back, my laptop gives my big problem! I cannot type "0" and "L" for some moment and when I cannot type 0 is a big problem! My password to log in contains 0, so I skipped school on Monday to get it fix. At night I meet j2eys for the movie Harry Potter. This movie cannot be consider nice nor yuck, I just feel that it is just like normal Harry Potter story, at the end of the day, he still got freed from the devil.

Yesterday was nightmare for me, I went to school with happy mood that my laptop is fixed, who knows when I reach class, when I want to start my laptop it cannot be on! Hell! I'm dead without a laptop, Fujitsu shop will only open at 10, my lesson starts at 8.30, I went down to loan a laptop at 8.50 but all laptop are being loaned off! How nice. But after I called the person, my laptop suddenly can be switched on. NICE, being tricked by my laptop.

Today it was raining the whole day, want to go shopping but I was lazy to wear skirt and the weather is so nice to sleep so I might as well sleep until 11 plus and watch up study test and then watch shows, back to sleep again.

I added the calendar at the side so people who want to date me out can see if I will be free on that day or not! Hahas